Monday 22 October 2012

I need a day off. Please?

I got a diagnosed about a year ago. It was the last week of October 2011. (I cant remember the exact date!) I cannot believe it has been a year and that I have been ill even longer.

Feeling this ill for a whole year. Every single minute of every single day.

I can tell you, that right now, I just want a day off. I am feeling extremely annoyed and restless. Why can't us spoonies have a day off every now and again?

Please.

Pretty please.

I need a day off.

I just want one day where I don't feel like I have the flu. I just want one pain-free day.

Please.

I hate feeling dizzy, I hate the nausea. I hate the headaches, the pain, the weakness, the tiredness, the exhaustion, the tachycardia, the sensitivity to light, sounds and smells.

I hate that it just won't stop or go away.

Okay, even just having exhaustion and pain. That would be like a day off. I'd be okay with that. But, please. I just need a holiday. I want to feel well for Christmas.

I NEED to be well for Christmas.

I cant cope with feeling this ill. I cannot even describe to you how rubbish i feel.

School children have days off. The have weekends and holidays. People get time off from work so why cant someone make us better just for one day?

Why won't it stop?

Why won't it go away?

I want to be a normal teenager and I want to feel well, just for one day.